i need to sleep.

I'm in North Jersey. Barely made the bus. Looked like an idiot. I need to go to the city more. I like it there.
The sunset was really pretty tonight and I wanted to take pictures with my new camera but the guy next to me on the bus didn't seem happy so I didn't want to disturb him. Or have him judge me.
He kept moving his hands like you do when you're talking angrily at someone. He was either having spasms or mentally confronting someone.
Like when you imagine an intense argument with someone you're very mad at or someone who is very mad at you. And then you really see the person and despite all the clever quips you conjured up on the bus, the fight never happens. You realize it's not worth it. Or you don't really want to be upset with anyone. Or maybe you love them too much to stay mad. Maybe you just don't want to expend the effort. Maybe you're too much of a pussy to say how you really feel. Or maybe they never confront you. That's the worst.
I have those fights all the time. And a lot of times when I do, I end up accidentally gesturing like I would if I were actually speaking. I think that's what he was doing.

ps i meant to post this a few days ago when i was actually still in north jersey but my computer died. SO SAD! ): HOWEVER. i just realized that this window was still up and that despite it not being on time, i can still post it. huzzah!