we can discover the wonders of nature, rolling in the rushes down by the riverside.

my hiatus from facebook is making me post a lot more than usual. I suppose that is kind of unfortunate because they mean less this way. I am so tired. 


I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. that you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. or just not exist. or just not be aware that you do exist. or something like that. 


I've felt like that. I kind of feel like that now. life is boring me to pieces. I need a change. I need new experiences and new people. I am wilting. that's a good verb for me right now. I can't tell if I've been watered too much or too little. or maybe there just wasn't enough sun. I think that was it. I thrive in the sun. did you know that salvia does well in direct sunlight? it also has pretty flowers. that's weird to me. 
I just want to take a break until things get interesting again and people want to know me. if someone could wake me up when that happens, I would greatly appreciate it. I want to meet people and make friends. I fall in love with people everyday. I wish I could meet them. I can tell that I love them just by looking at them. I want to know them all. be their friend. I mostly like to reassure people. make them feel better. less alone. less crazy. less bad. except myself. I can rationalize things for everyone but myself. the rules don't apply to me. 
I know that it's time for sleep when my body feels far away. sometimes my legs are in australia and my head is in canada. my fingertips are in china and africa. 


let's get lost in the atlantic. would you like to do that with me? we could swim with the sharks and eat jellyfish. I just want to float away for a little bit.